Five years ago today I was in a hospital room feeling terrified. Terrified of labor and terrified because I had no idea how to be a mother. Five years ago today I met you and held you for the very first time. Five years ago today you took my heart and I fell in love with you in a way I have never known before.
In the last five years you have taught me so much. You taught me about pure love, complete joy, patience and understanding. You taught me that I have magical powers - the power to make you feel better when you are sick, the power to make boo boos feel better, the power to have all the answers (here's a secret sometimes I have to look up the answers - mommy really does not know everything).
Five years ago I did not know that time can fly and that years really feel like months and months feel like days and days feel like seconds. Five years ago I did not know how truly magical life as a mother can be. Five years ago I did not know that one day I would have to start to let you go into the world and discover who you are.
You have grown so much and I am so proud of the little boy you have become. You are kind, thoughtful, sensitive, incredibly funny, and so very sweet. You are smart, stubborn and determined. Managing your social life is similar to managing the press meetings for a formal presidential candidate - lucky for you mommy has experience in that from her former life. Cooking your very specific meals may require a culinary degree but lucky for you mommy has learned to follow recipes and get incredibly creative sneaking certain foods into your meals. Playing with you, showing you the world and seeing it through your eyes is the greatest gift anyone can have.
Five years ago I could not picture what life would be like with a five year old. Today I cannot picture life without you. I can close my eyes a dream about what you will be like at 10, 15, 20, 25, 55, 105.... Five years ago I did not understand what it would mean to feel so proud of someone - today I am proud of you every single day.
Five years ago I did not know that my heart would be so full with love. You are my sunshine - you are my everything. Happy Birthday my sweet baby boy - I love you so much!!!